finally...

::checks to see when he last updated his blog...:: well my last "real" post was back on the 21st... gawd I'm bad!!

Well first things first... since SO much has happened, I'm bound to forget something along the line, so I'm gonna make this as brief as I can, while packing in as many details as possible...

On Friday and Saturday night of LAST week, I had the whole dorm unit to myself *muahaha*... Todd, one of the roommates, came on Saturday afternoon and unpacked some stuff, but it was like a day trip for him, so he went back home and stayed Saturday night at his place. On Sunday afternoon, Todd came back, as well as Jason and Doug. By Sunday night, most everything was in place.

Just by being with the other three guys, I knew that Todd if anyone would be fine with my sexuality (well he must... I'll explain in a bit)... So Sunday night I went down to the SUB to get something to eat, and soon thereafter Todd sat down at the table with me, eating some food that he got. I borrowed a pen that he had, and I put a napkin on my lap and simply wrote down on it "I'm bisexual"... I folded up the napkin, and I told him that he can read it only if he wont flip out or anything... He said he wouldn't, so I passed it on to him. He read it and said, "thats cool".

Then Monday night I told Jason the same way... and he too is fine with it. Now, since I've told Todd and Jason, they have prodded Doug about the subject... not giving hints about my sexuality, but about homosexuality in general. From what Ive seen he really hasnt taken it all that well... Which is fine because I would feel VERY uncomfortable if Doug knew that I'm bi (oh and also, out of the 3 hes the ugliest).

Classes are really nice... I like some instructors more than others, but as of now I really dont have a grudge against any particular one... I got a fair amount of money in financial aide, which helped out a TON because I blew almost $400 of it on books!!

And on Tuesday, I kinda blew some money and *gulp* got a cell phone through Cricket... But its nice... unlimited incoming calls, unlimited calls to the CDA/Spokane area.

What else... also on Tuesday I met a guy off the internet that lives up here... Jesse is really nice, but he's 15 (16 in 2 weeks)... sooooo... I dont see much between us (hah, yeah didnt I say that about Brandon??) And again today we met up... didnt do anything sexual, just walk around and talk, hike the hill... just "getting to know you" kinda stuff. And there are two guys in Spokane who will... not... talk to me anymore on AOL, and it is REALLY pissing me off... Both seem really nice when I was able to talk to them, but one has me blocked and the other won't reply my IMs.

Last night I went by Amber's house (I dont think I've mentioned Amber... we used to be very good friends back in grade school... she moved up to CDA, then last year to California to live with her mom and stepdad)... although she hasn't been there for so long, her dad (Steve) and step-mom (Debbie) know me. So I was walking around CDA and deceided that I'd stop by her folk's place and visit a bit. All in all I stayed there for about an hour and a half, then Debbie gave me a ride back to the dorm.

Well... I guess thats as good of an update as I can think of... so... yeah... later folks!!

sorry sorry sorry

This week has been hellishly busy... so on Friday night or so, I'll whip out a really large post... promise!!

So much to post... so little time

Well my body is saying that its 12:23, but its not!! It's 11:23... darn time zone...

To be brief, for tonight its just me in the dorm unit, all to myself!! :P There's a TON of hot guys here, heck even my roommate is high up on the gaydar!! But its nice... high speed internet, muahaha...

Well, later folks I'm off to bed!!

hiatus

I won't have internet access from tonight until Friday at the soonest. I also had a dentist appointment today, and it turns out that I have a teeny tiny little cavity (my first one *pouts*)... so I'll have to get that filled in Coeur d' Alene or Spokane.

Well... I'm out... gotta pack some more!!

The good... the bad
Feeling good... feeling awkward...

Just a warning: this content contains highly sexual content between two homosexual (well mostly) makes!!

Last night I met up with Brandon... aaaaand stuff happened...

Some of what happened I'm happy with, other parts make me feel a bit weary...

I met Brandon at the mall in Nampa, I almost didn't recongnize him because he got a really short haircut. He wasn't too fond of how his hair looked, but I liked it.

We drove down to Fred Meyer so that I could drop off my roll of film from the concert to get one-hour processed. Then we walked around the store for a bit, then went back to my car. Then we just drove around while we talked... Over to Caldwell, by ACI, then back to Nampa, then drove out by the lake. We didn't go right up to the lake, since last time we were there, I blew out a tire...

I deceided to be a good son, so I went to Maverik and put in some gas... The pump was being bitchy with me, so after maybe 2 minutes of the damn thing beeping at me, and me putting my debit card in about 5 times I got it to work... While I was getting the pump to work, this kinda hot guy on the other side of the pump started up a conversation with me... starting it off by saying that I looked familiar...

mmmkay... he looked familiar too... like he was Klint's older brother (if he even has one)... Somehow he's related to a girl at my school that I graduated with... like a brother in law or something. He said that he's in some internet business, so he pulled out a flyer out of his car while he talked about it. By this time I was done gassing up the van, but now that pump wouldn't print me a receipt!! So I had to go inside and they reprinted one for me.

Then we went back to Fred Meyer, where I picked up my photos. After 3 attempts, my debit card wouldn't work, so I had to hand over $9 in ones, which I didn't want to do but that was fine. By this time it was quite dark, like 9 or so.

We then drove back to the mall, and although while we were driving around I mentioned having sex (or something... handjob if anything) that night, Brandon was still a bit hesitant. The whole time he was thinking of anal... and given the circumstances that was a no-go.

At the mall, I parked right by his car. It was 9:15 or so, and the mall was closed but there were a few cars in the lot. I turned off the engine, and we talked about the possibility of us having sex soon thereafter. As we were talking, this car with Oregon plates pulls up a few spaces over, followed by a truck with Idaho plates that parked alongside it... The drivers then rolled down their windows and started talking to each other. I thought that it was rather odd that two vehicles would meet up at an arranged place within a minute of each other, even more strange when the two vehicles come from places that are atleast 30 miles away.

So the guys in the two vehicles talked for maybe 20 minutes, then the guy in the car got out of it, and went into the truck, and the truck took off, just to come back about 3 minutes later. The guys then continuted to talk. Now them talking was fine with me, but I imagine they would have thought that a vehicle starting up and taking off without having anyone get inside of it would have been rather odd...

Anyway I told my mom that I'd leave at 15, so I called her on the cell phone and asked if I could leave at 11. She said sure, so I got about an extra hour to do something with Brandon.

Finally both of the guys left in their own vehicles... So I started up the van and drove to the back of the mall. There were only a few vehicles there, not to mention it was a bit darker.

Okay Alex, when I talked to you on the phone earlier today, I kinda led you wrong... And you know the rules: tell no one!! Also... a little disclaimer might be good right here too: HIGHLY SEXUAL CONTENT FOR THE REMAINDER OF THIS ENTRY!!

We talked some more, and we came to the conclusion that both of us didn't have the guts to go down to WalMart (or Fred Meyer for what would have been the third time that night) to get condoms. And during our talk throughout the evening, for anal sex you need lube, and he's not a *ahem* quiet... one... when he's getting it.

I told him that I'd have no problem with him going down on me, but I was a bit weary of doing the same to him. He said that he's only had sex with two other people... the first person he did it with was also his first boyfriend, and they only had sex once then they broke up. Also that's when they lost their virginity to each other. The other person he's done it with is Carl, who only does it with Brandon, and who too also lost his virginity to Brandon.

Brandon also said that all three of them get tested regularly, and that he's clean...

So we go to the back of the van, move the back seat forward which gave us some more room, not a whole lot but more than what there was. We talked some more, but then we hit a roadblock: we both had to pee.

Back down to the gas station... we peed (separately) and went back to the back parking lot of the mall. As we pulled in to the lot, there was an Idaho State Police trooper leaving... he went across the street into a subdivision, where he turned off his lights and pulled over infront of a house...

Now that kinda added to the hesitation of us doing anything, knowing that there was a State Trooper within... a fourth of a mile...

We then went to the back of the van... we made out for maybe a minute or so. Then we had to figure out how we'd be positioned. It was rather interesting actually... I was on the bottom, but my right leg was right on the the track for the back seat, so I had to find a way to either stay off of it, or rest my leg on it without hurting myself.

All in all, I had my feet against the driver's side, with me leaning against the passenger side. Brandon's smaller than I am, so he didn't have much of a problem arranging himself. He unzipped my shorts and started...

There were some cars that drove by, so when he heard them, he'd stop and look out the windows. And every time he did that, basically more time was added to the clock if you know what I mean... He then stopped for a few seconds because his cheeks were getting a bit sore. Now if he kept on going without stopping (or without stopping as much) I probably would have finished. But since he stopped a few time, it meant that he had to keep working at it. So after a while, his tongue ring was making things for me a bit sore, so he stopped. But trust me, there was more of a sensation with him going down on me than when he tried to give me a handjob last month, but if he kept on going I really think that I would have finished.

So I zipped back up, and we just sat across from each other in the back part of the van... Then... well to put it lightly he got himself ready...

Now here's the part where I'm feeling really... not ashamed but... not really proud of what I did.

I was really hesitant to go down on him... mainly having someone else's dork in my mouth, but also knowing that what I was about to do was taking a gigantic risk... Brandon said he's clean, so I took his word for it, but thats a lame-ass reason for not using a condom...

It's like when you have to jump off of a bridge for BASE jumping or something... part of you wants to take that risk, but the other part is flipping out. After maybe 15-20 seconds of mentally pressuring myself, I started.

For the most part it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Not the best thing to be doing with your mouth, but it's not like I was rimming him *EWW* or anything.

After maybe 6 minutes, he was done. Before I started, I told him to let me know a few seconds before he was going to finish, which he did.

To be honest, I really didn't taste anything, other than a bit of a salty taste. He said that lately he's been masterbating alot, he said that was probably why not a whole lot came out, and that was fine by me.

So basically thats all that happened, but I'm still a bit concerned about what I did...

Large post later today...

you'll see why...

Big update

Sunday: I met up with some of my relatives in Boise... we met at the Red Robin on Parkcenter (where I was checking out guys last time I was there) So it was myself, brother, sister, mom, two aunts, an uncle, grandmother, and a cousin. Some friends of the family were eating there when we arrived, so the 3 of them joined up with us. I had a really nice hamburger... and like last time I was there, several hot guys could be found.

One of my aunts gave me some savings bonds that she's had for a while, which is something that I really didn't expect. After dinner at Red Robin, we all went to my grandmother's place for a bit... My cousin had to take a 8:30 flight to Sacramento, so one of the aunts, my mom, grandmother, myself and the cousin all went to the airport. Turns out that her flight was delayed... Bad enough that it's delayed, but it's worse when it's delayed by 3 hours. At 9:30 or so, my mom, brother and sister all went home as everyone went their own way.

Got home, did soe more packing. Fun fun...

Monday: I took my brother into work at noon, and once my dad got home at 3:30, I went out to the bank to cash in one of the savings bonds. As I left, I remembered that last time I went to the bank to cash a check, I left my wallet at home. As I arrived at the bank after driving into Nampa (instead of Caldwell like I wanted to)... guess what I did?? I left my wallet at home AGAIN!! So as I walked back to the car from inside the bank, there was a hispanic woman outside who was really pissed off... There were 2 people in a truck and she was standing outside of the driver's door just yelling in Spanish at the guy in the truck... Pointing fingers and everything!!

I got back home, grabbed my wallet and went back out to the bank to cash that savings bond. By the time I got home it was 5, so I got ready to leave again, time to go the Lifehouse concert. I called Brandon, because I wanted to stop by his place after the concert. He told me that he was planning on going to the fair too, but not the concert. So that was cool :)

I intended on taking Chinden off of a nearby road straight out to the fairgrounds, where the concert was being held. I got maybe within 4 miles of the fairground, then the traffic was at a stand-still. So I took a few sideroads and made a slingshot around the traffic. Once I got back on Chinden, within a mile of the fairgrounds, I had to wait through 3 light cycles at the stoplight. All in all I made it there just fine. I was roaming in the parking lot, looking for a space... A lady walking to hte gates pointed out a spot for me. I had the window rolled down, so I said thanks and pulled in.

There was maybe an hour before the concert started from the time I got there, so I walked around looking at what all there was. I only saw one person that I know: Klint... We were both walking around, he was on a cell phone waiting for someone to answer. At first I didn't recongize him because he had his hair frosted. He's still a cutie though :P

I made my way to the stands where the concert was to be held... One of the ladies who showed me where my seat was ended up seating me in the wrong row, so I had to be bumped back one... *grr* But before I was moved back, there was this couple next to me, maybe in their 40's, just the two of them... The wife was sitting next to me, and while we were waiting she struck up a converstation with me. Then I got moved back by one of the crew because I was taking someone else's seat.

While I was waiting I called Brandon on the cell phone, and he said that he changed his mind and that he wasn't coming to the fair. BUMMER!!

All of a sudden, the background music stopped, and some DJs from a local radio station (Magic 93.1) came out and introduced the band... After that, there was THX's little sound thingy came over the speakers, so people were covering their ears because it was so loud, and the bleachers and covers were all rattling from it... lol...

Then the band came out and everyone applauded... After singing two songs the lead singer (Jason Wade) said, "you guys can go ahead and stand up, its not like you're at an opera." So after that almost everyone rose... Some people even stated dancing.

At the enterance, there was a sign telling people not to bring in camcorders or audio recording equipment, and also to stay away from the stage area. Like that sign did a lot of good lol... I must have saw like 10 camcorders, and the security crew did nothing to them. After maybe 6 songs, the lead singer pointed to the two security gaurds that were on the ground off to the sides of the stage, he then pointed to the crowd, then back to the stage... Esentially telling the security guys to let the audience members come right up to the stage.

I wedged my way up to the stage, so I was about 15 feet away from Jason. I had my 35mm camera with me, not my digital (although I brought along both of them to take photos) so I took maybe 20 or so photos of the concert, and 6 digital ones. But the bad thing is that I can't develop the photos from last night until I'm up in CDA *waa*...

The concert ended, and I walked around the fair some more... got my photo taken by the Olympic Cauldrin that carried the flame as it trekked across the states.

I stopped by a gas station and called Brandon from a pay phone. Turns out that he wasn't home, but he was at Carl's house... Which oddley enough is like a mile south of where I was. Slightly ticked off, he said that he'd call me today so that we can arrange on meeting up. I got home at 10:20ish, with one hell of a headache :(

Today: Brandon called, and we're meeting up tonight at 7. Call me a whore or whatever, but this will be my last time seeing Brandon for... 3 months at the least... so I really wanna get some sex before I leave!! I can't meet him at his place, because his parents will be home, same over here... so that hinders having sex alot. I sure don't have the guts to walk into RiteAid or Albertsons to buy condoms, so I'll leave that to Brandon. That is, if we even do have sex...

Hot mutt neighbor is outside washing his Jeep... ::drools::... Anyway we'll have to see what happens between Brandon and myself. If anything we'll have a good make-out session I suppose. If I have time I'll slap up a post over all that happened.

AH!! My ears!!

Big post coming tomorrow... *runs to the bathroom to get some pain killer for one hell of a headache...*

Hi ho... hi ho... off to see Lifehouse I go :)

So today has *FINALLY* arrived...

Alot of stuff has happened today and yesterday, so tonight (if I have time) I'll slap up a large post... if not tonight then tomorrow.

Packin'

I spent a good part of the day packing stuff into those plastic storage containers that I bought at WalMart like a month ago... One of the things that I went through was this old box full of crap that I've kept over the past few years... Threw some of that away, kept most of it. And I stumbled across a photo of Dan, one of my old friends from 8th grade... so I need to scan that and drop it in an email to him...

This morning I also talked to Ben on the phone for about half an hour... His phone kept beeping at him while we were talking, so he was talking and it was like this: "yeah I was wanting to go to *beep beep* the mall today..."

So it was one of those rare times when he was home alone, and I was able to talk to him while my mom was out in the living room taking a nap :P

speaking about malls, I went to the one in Nampa and (with some old but still valid gift certificates my mom had and gave me) and got myself a nice new pair of shoes... Better off, the store had them for 15% off, then an additional 30% off atop of that... so these $40 shoes costed me about $25. Now for a little rant: most of the shoes that they had were size 10.5 or less... I wear 12's... (or 13's, depending on the brand) So it was darn near impossible for me to find shoes that I liked that were my size, which looked good, and which were $35 or less... But I did find a pair, and that's the one I got.

After that, I went to the store here in town to pick up some photos of Cody that I had reprinted for his parents... The guys who processed it obviously didn't understand the directions that I wrote, because I ended up with double prints of 5 photos, not 4 like I had instructed. And these were 5x7 reprints too... So I forked over $13 for that, only intending on paying $10 at most. *grr*...

And our old neighbors stopped by for a bit at around 8... visited with them for a bit.

Well thats pretty much my day :P

Feeling gay :P

For some reason, I'm really happy today... dont know why... Some kind of mental euphoria I suppose...

Last night I talked to Brandon on AOL for the first time in about a week. So if all goes we'll meet up on either Tuesday or Wednesday of next week. His dad has Tuesday off, so we can't meet at his place (we can meet up somewhere else, but no sex)... On Wednesday we can meet up, I dont know if his dad has Wednesday off, but... well I'll have to talk to him about Wednesday... But it'll have to be in the morning because I have plans on the later part of Wednesday.

Throughout the day I've been filing all of these letters I've received from colleges and such. And I got some boxes from my brother's work, so tomorrow I have to empty out two plastic storage containers into the boxes, so that I can use the containers to take stuff up to CDA in.

My mom and I went to WalMart this evening... there was like a million guys there that were hot :P

Aside from that... today was kinda boring...

Spoke with Eric, and got in touch with "BiIdahoan"...

So, after being on hte internet for an INSANE amount of time today... :P

I was awoken at 7 this morning by a lady who deals with the horses that my sister rides as part of her theropy with ADHD/Autism... She was supposed to ride horses at 11, but they called to inform us that the people who ride at 9:30 had canceled. I (grogily) told the lady that we had arranged for something else... What I didnt know was that my mom was at work already!! I called mom at work, and she said that she would be able to take my sister to ride horses at 9:30.

I called the lady back, but I couldn't find her phone number. Now this is where *69 comes in handy!! (Since we dont have caller ID)... so when all was said and done, my sister rode horses at 9:30... which actually proved to be a good thing since if she rode at 11, my brother wouldn't have a way of getting to work without being an hour/hour and a half late.

And I got my bank statement in the mail today *eeks*... Oh and if anyone from Wells Fargo ever reads this: CHANGE YOUR FRIGGIN ENVOLOPES!!... I realized that I threw the first statement away without opening it because I thought it was junk mail: all I saw on the envolope was their logo and a graphic telling me to apply for a car loan (hah... okay so the folks there KNOW how much money I have, and trust me it's not enough to get a car with, with or without a loan!!)

While I was on the internet for too long today, I talked to Eric on AOL... So at around 2 or so I whipped out a calling card and we talked on the phone for a bit (isn't is freaky when I have his phone number memorized?!) Turns out that we're both left handed, and we both have the same colonge ("Moves" by Adidas), amongst other things that we talked about.

Back on the internet after my little convo with Eric, I was talking to him again on AOL, when "BiIdahoan" IM'd me, so we talked for eh... 20 minutes or so. Then my mom got home from working and going to a dentist appointment, where then I got bitched at for being online too much... (long story) Oh and she set up an appointment for me too... next Wednesday *grr*...

hmm... hehe... apparently one can say "bitch" on Channel 2 News and not have it bleeped out... ANYWAY...

I also looked at job openings at places up in Coeur d' Alene... since you know I still need a job... I guess that'll give me something to do next Friday when I'm up there.

Well, thats all I have right now... peace!!

*sniffs air*... PEW!!

Well thats the last time I cut ham... 6 hours and 3 washings later my hadns still smell like ham...

08/14/02

This photo was on the cover of the local paper... for some reason those cowboys are kinda sexy in some way...

Anywho... today was somewhat more eventful... I talked to Alex for about 15 minutes on the phone. If all goes we'll talk again tomorrow. We couldn't talk long because my brother was here, and he had to leave soon after we hung up. And I still need to get ahold of Brandon... (mental note: send email to Brandon...)

I found a new guy up in CDA, only thing is he's 15 *eeks*... We talked on AOL for a while today. We sent some pics of ourselves to each other. Considering he's 3 years my junior, he's pretty hot. But (hah, and how many times have I said this??) I really don't forsee much between any of us... simply because of his age. But hey, he may have connections to guys closer to my age. The way my luck has ran is this: guys who I get along with in CDA are younger than I am (15-16)... But the guys closer to my age (17-18) all live in Spokane, 30 miles away from CDA. Eh well, I'll manage.

Weeeeell... I guess that's that... lata

*enter Psycho music*...

I was talking to Eric on AOL earlier tonight (who has anohter screen name similar to this one on xy.com that I spotted), and this happened:

JunoSurvivor:
JunoSurvivor: that you??
JunoSurvivor::-P
JunoSurvivor: j/k
Spirit Cloud8: OMG
Spirit Cloud8: how weird is that
JunoSurvivor: just some random guy on xy :-/
Spirit Cloud8: thats kinda creepy
JunoSurvivor: "Im 19 years old, I live in Sweden. My interests are: Swimming, hanging out with friends, listen to music, watch movies, etc. I just love Céline Dion so if you like her, send me a message, ok?? =)"
Spirit Cloud8: OMG
Spirit Cloud8: im from sweden and i was on the swim team,
Spirit Cloud8: ok stop it
JunoSurvivor: that came right off of his xy profile... swear to God
Spirit Cloud8: mike that is so scarey
Spirit Cloud8: stop
JunoSurvivor: http://www.xy.com/bois/peeps_view.php?id=17206&username=Angelboy82
Spirit Cloud8: thats socreepy
JunoSurvivor: yeah...

"Are you gay??"

So I was walking home from the store to check on my photos (which are not in yet... *waa*). Anyway so I'm like 3 houses away from my place and this 11-year old rides up behind me, then he coasts off to my left. He says hi to me, I say hi back... then he said, "Umm... are you gay??" I was thinking "what the hell?!?!"... I said no (there's a difference between 'gay' and 'bisexual'), and he replied. "oh, because Adrian (guy from school) said you were"...

Well today shaped up to be a snore... really not a whole lot worthy of note...

Final goodbyes... part 2

First off, I got a haircut before Cody's service (I wanted to look good, not to mention I was overdue for a haircut). On the way home I remembered that I had to wash my clothes that I was going to wear to the service, so as soon as I got home thats the first thing I did... then I washed my hair to get the loose hair out.

I left for Cody's funeral service at 12:15, although it didn't start until 1... I got to the church and the main parking lot was full, so I had to park on the side of the highway. The side of the highway is really steep, so I was kinda worried that the van would tip over or something but it never did.

There was a line from the main doors out into the parking lot where people were waiting to get in. It was kinda slow because everyone had to sign in, then there were photos of Cody and other memorabilia from his childhood... In front of me in line was Phyllis, who's son was killed in a car wreck 16 months ago to the day of Cody... (here's a picture of her son, Patrick, that I put up on the one-year anniversary of his death) The service was held in the gymnasium at a nearby LDS (or "Mormon") church outside of town, and there must have been... gosh... 500 or so people... Regardless there was very little room in there once everyone arrived. Even though I got there 45 minutes early, I was sitting in the third row from the back.

Cody's maturnal grandfather gave the opening prayer, and he almost couldn't do it because he started crying. Then a 10-year old came up and sang a song (did a pretty good job too). Sue came up next, sniffling a bit at first, but once she started talking she calmed down... She spoke about when he was born, and all of his accomplishments and such. Doug came up, and talked some more...

Now what happened next I think was the most emotional part of the whole service... For the past year Cody has been preparing for his mission for the church... The day that he was in the wreck was the same day he got a letter from the church, saying where he'd have his mission at (sometimes they're in other states, but mostly in other countries)... As part of the preparation, he had to keep a diary over the course of the last year... Doug asked that the rest of the family come up to the stage, and he would open the letter from the church, so that they'd know where Cody would have been sent to. But first Sue wanted to do something... She flipped through the diary and found an entry that Cody wrote on where he wanted to serve his mission at. It was something like "serving on a remote place, like an island would be great... or some place exotic, like France or South Africa..."

Doug opened up the envolope, and Sue read the letter: he was to serve his mission in Puerto Rico... an island, just like he was hoping.

As the service went on, Phyllis sat beside me. As Doug started his speech, she left the gym, but I saw her standing at the doorway, looking in. After his parents read the letter, I just broke down... I walked out of the gym into the hall, and Phyllis brought her arm out and we hugged as I was crying... not like loud cries, but alot of tears, and she comforted me for a few minutes while I regained my composure...

Throughout the service, it was easy to tell who was LDS and who (like me) wasn't... They sang some religious hymns, some people had books that they were reading them out of, but most recited it off of memory.

Promises I'll lend to you, for a spot of time      a precious little boy, He'll bring his charms to gladden your heart      and give you untold joy. I can't promise his stay with you      will be as you would plan For the plan of God, as you know      is seldom the plan of man. But I can promise the day will come      when you will be called home too, And awaiting for you at Heaven's door,      will be that little boy you knew. So for now find comfort in the Gospel,       your loving friends and family For all is well for those who love      and know the promise of eternity.

Final goodbyes...

Here in a few minutes I'm going to Cody's service... *sigh*...

Oh, what did I get myself into??

JunoSurvivor: as off-base as this sounds, given all thats happened...
JunoSurvivor: *gulp* I really wanna get laid before I leave... :-/
(Brandon's SN): why do you say that?
JunoSurvivor: when I get up there I'll have to start all over from scratch in finding someone :-/
JunoSurvivor: plus... I dunno... part of me just wants some real action too... :-/
Brandon: what kind of action...like what do you wan't to happen?
JunoSurvivor: well... just anything that'll get the job done I suppose
Brandon: like do you want to get fucked, or fuck someone
JunoSurvivor: eh... fuck someone
JunoSurvivor: getting it seems like it'd be painful... so for starts giving it to some one
Brandon: first time does hurt
Brandon: and second through about the 8th or 9th time
JunoSurvivor: well lets just say I have an insanely low tolernce for pain :-P
Brandon: you'll probably be a top for a while then
JunoSurvivor: probably...

Spent time with Cody's family

One of the guys who lives a few houses down drives a semi, so at 7 this morning it was parked a few houses down running... *ugh*...

You know in your fridge, if you have two glass bottles next to each other, they rattle... well anyway this truck was making something rattle in my bedroom, so when I woke up at 7, I couldn't get back to sleep because of the rattling. Turns out it was a little trophy on a small corner shelf...

My brother called an uncle of ours to get his opinion on a truck that he was wanting to get, which he ended up buying... a 1977 GMC Cheyanne, in a shade of yellow that matches our house :)

While our uncle (and aunt, who tagged along) were over, they took me and my brother to lunch at Sunrise. My brother and myself both bought 2 biscuits and gravy (which are HUGE), and my aunt and uncle bought some omlets. Anyway they were both amazed that my brother and myself at all of the biscuits and gravy. Actually I amazed myself too... Since Thursday I haven't had much of an appetite.

When we got home, my aunt and uncle said their goodbyes, then my brother wanted to go out and get the truck. So he and my mom went out, and I kept fort with my sister... in that time I burned the CD for Cody's folks... My dad got home from work, then soon thereafter my brother rolled into the driveway with his new toy, and my mom followed in the van.

I talked to my mom, and she let me go over to Cody's place to drop off the CD, so at around 4:30 I went there... There were quite a bit of people still there, not as many as yesterday, but still quite a few.

Now I swear someone is trying to send me a message... Since Thursday, both of the printers at my place don't work right... Thursday night I was talking to Brandon on hte phone and I heard some crackling sounds which I'm sure were coming from the power lines... Anyway I took the backroads to Cody's house, and as I turned off the highway I had to wait for a sheriff, which turned onto the same road I would soon take... After driving maybe a mile on this other road, an ambulance came from anohter road and followed the sheriff cruiser... I turned off on another road, and they just kept going straight.

Maybe 15 minutes after I got there, roughly 15 people, relatives, arrived... so I didn't talk to Sue that much, and Doug was at church up until maybe the last 5 minutes that I was there...

All throughout the house there are literally stacks of photos of Cody... Most given to his parents by friends, others have dropped off videos... and there were too many flower boquets for me to even count. Needless to say there's alot of people that the family can turn to...

I stayed there for maybe half an hour... I took the backroads home, with some little adventures off to the side, so the trip back to my place from Cody's, which is normally around 8 minutes, was more like 15.

Well tomorrow is gonna be a really, REALLY hard day for me: Cody's service is at 1... *sighs*... Atleast the good thing is that, after the service, the worst parts are all over. While I haven't been depressed per se, I've been more emotional since the accident, and as a result I'm getting this ugly little acne outbreak on my forehead *ick*

Interesting...

It's not every day that my hostname is 1Cust1.tnt1.boise.id.da.uu.net...

The healing begins

For the last two years at school, I've taken most of the photos for my school's yearbook and newspaper. A majority of those photos are digital ones, which I keep copies of here at home and at school.

I was home with my sister for about 5 hours today, so in most of that time I was digging through 1600 digital photos on my computer that I took last year at school. I don't have any digital photos from Cody and my junior year, their on the other computer. I copied all the photos of Cody that I could find, and I put them in a folder on my hard drive.

I had to pick up my brother from work at 4:30, so I left at 4 so that I could go to Cody's house to talk to his folks. I parked the car on the side of the road infront of his house (which is HUGE compared to mine), being careful on where I parked because I could easily count ten vehicles there... I walked up to the door and there was a note on it: "Don't knock... come on in"

Slowly I walked in, and off to the left someone gave off a "hi"... it was one of Cody's aunts (she looked alot Sue, Cody's mom). She walked me into the kitchen were there were there were a handful of people, mostly middle to late-aged women. One of the women was the mom of a softball player, so she knows who I am. So I talked to her and about three minutes later Sue comes out from one of the rooms on the other side of the house.

She walked up to me with a smile, then she gave me a hug... After the hug we talked for a few moments, and I told her that later on in the day, or tomorrow, I could bring over a CD with photos that I've taken of Cody over the past few years.

As I was leaving, Cody's dad (Doug) got home with some of Cody's friends, who spent some time at a nearby pond... One of those friends was Chris. Out of my close network of friends, Chris is the only one that doesn't know that I'm bisexual... And given the place and circumstance, I deceided not to come out to him right then and there. Doug aprroached me, shook my hand and we talked for a few minutes, then he and Sue had to leave for whatever reason. Which was fine because I still had to pick up my brother. When I got home I told my mom where I went and all, since the first thing she asked me when I got home is why I left half an hour early...

So... we'll have to see how tomorrow goes.

just heard this on the radio...
and its just how I feel...

"I Feel So" by Box Car Racer

Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, just mad
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, just mad
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, just mad
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, just mad
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

aww... *wipes eyes*

I was talking to one of my online buddys earlier today (aka teenboi), and I told him what all happend, and he wrote me this:

I know you're going through all of this
It's really hard to take all of this.
It seems you'll never ever accept this.
I know how much you must be pissed.
Right now, you probably don't want to hear about
Why God would take someone so special away.
You weren't as close as you could have been,
But you still wish they weren't taken away.
Just hang in there, you'll make it through
But cry till your heart bleeds
If that's what you feel you need
I'll be here, when you need...

To see this post on his journal, go here. And if you read this teenboi, thanks :) That really really does mean alot to me.

Trying to get ahold of Brandon...

I called his house twice and got the answering machine... and I dont know if he got his new cell phone like he was telling me he was... *sigh*

Brother is NOT HELPING...

I called Brandon last night and told him what happened to Cody and all... He said that I could go over to his place if I wanted to, so that we could talk and such, but my mom wouldn't let me. So he said that he'd call me today... he might not be able to drive out to my place, but if anything we can talk on hte phone. But I don't want to talk to someone on the phone about Cody... I want to be with a person, in person. The only way I can do that is by (suprise suprise) DRIVING!!

I went to bed at around 11:30 last night... at around 12:30 I was almost asleep when my brother came into the room, turned on the light, shoved all the crap off of his bed onto the floor by my bed, sniffled alot because his allergies were bothering him and he refuses to take medicine for it... So at around 1:30 I'm almost asleep yet again, and he turns on the radio to listen to LoveLine...

All in all I got about 4 hours of sleep, and my brother woke me up at 8 this morning by pushing my feet into the matress and saying that I *have* to take him to work... I grupily said that I didn't want to, but he just mumbled and left the room... So I take a shower, and in hte middle of me eating breakfast (the 2nd meal I've had since yesterday morning, the other thing I ate was a small piece of cake) he said that we had to leave now... Last night he told me that he had to be at work at 9:30, and here it is 8:40 and he's telling me its time to go... While I'm getting my shoes on, he said that he wants to take him to Chevron so that he can get a refill... I snapped at him, saying that he's lucky enough that I'm taking him to work, given all thats happened. Then he said, "gosh Mike you don't have to be so snappy at me"... Then I went back at him: "Oh, so having one of my best friends being killed yesterday morning isn't a legitimate reason to be emotional?? Give me a break..."

Hmm... well Brandon said that he'd call me this morning, maybe then I can tell my mom that I want to go to his place today... I'm sure that I'll have a better chance going today since I took my brother to work, but we'll have to see how things go...

aww... Eric...

Eric's away message on AOL: "At Becca's....Kevin...i had such a great time today:-D i wish i didnt have to leave. i love ya. Mike im soo sorry about what happend. and if anyone wants to get ahold of me call the cell."

I dont have your cell number Eric!! hehe... eh well, I dont think that I'd be able to call you anyway, but thanks a million for the offer.

Mad at my mom

Ugh... Amanda and Brandon are the only ones that I can get ahold of... Amanda has family over, so I can't see her... I could go over to Brandon's... but in either case my mom won't let me go to either one of their houses. HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO GRIEVE WHEN I CAN'T EVEN GO TO ANYONE'S HOUSE!?!? UGH I am SO FUCKING PISSED OFF AT MY MOM!!

Anyway... I did get ahold of Brandon, and he's coming over to my plaec tomorrow... so thats kinda good I suppose...

I looked through my old posts and I found some on Cody:

ˇ his little sister asking me if I liked Cody
ˇ Cody proclaiming that he masterbated 3 times in an hour (yeah... I know...)

Goodbye Cody... love ya man :(

Cody on February 22, 2002
Oh fuck... where do I start??

The past 4 hours have been living hell for me... And just a few minutes ago I found out the rumor was true: Cody, the very first person that I came out to back on April 12, 2001, was killed in a car wreck last night...

I finished off a box of Kleenex and about half a roll of toilet paper, my nose is beet red. My mom keeps asking me if I'm fine. Well I'm sorry I don't want to talk to her about it, I want to talk to my friends about it... Amanda was the only one who answered her phone but she's at her place and she has family over.

Oh God I can't think of what she's going through... Amanda's dad was a one of Cody's teachers, and she also has relatives visiting from Oregon for a full week... She said that she was at Cody's place for about 3 hours, with his family and all.

My mom had to work a bit today at school, and from what she was told, Cody was following his parents back home from a golf tournament. They were using cell phones to keep in touch, when Cody didn't get home after a while his parents called his cell phone, and a Idaho State Trooper answered it.

I called one of my former teachers (who was my Yearbook/Newspaper advisor), who now lives in Nebraska. I got the answering machine, and about 20 minutes later she called back and left a message, since my mom was on the phone. So I listened to the message that she left and I almost broke down... I mean I could hear it in her voice that she too was trying to hold back the tears and all, so she was obviously shaken up too. I want to call her back, but its long distance and I don't know if I could hold up to even call her...

I REALLY want to talk to SOMEONE about this... in person or on phone... Brandon's probably at work, but... I dunno... Maybe I can go to Brandon's after I drop my brother off at work... I've been trying to get ahold of Macy for about two weeks, to talk to her about other things, but right now my luck isn't running all that well...

Ugh... well I guess I'll leave it at this, so I can collect myself... Maybe curl up and cry or something...

I heard a rumor...

...and I'm praying to God that it's not true. I'll put something up about it later on today, once I dig up more info on it.

Interesting day...

It's 11:43 and I've had three hits today...

Last night I talked to Ben on AOL, apparently he's still sleeping or something because he's not on AOL right now... if he was I was going ask if I could call him. But I did call Alex, and he came out to his mom last night, and for the most part she took it just fine :)

Confidential message to Alex:

*give out a really long scream thats loud and in a high pitch*

"Telemarketers don't normally call from PAY PHONES!!"

Last night I talked to Ben on AOL, and we made plans on meeting up today. He put up an away message, a few minutes after which Brandon popped online. I started up an instant message... telling him that I was going to be in Boise today. He said that he wasn't feeling all that well, even though he had the day off he had plans as well... a 9:30 interview at a store and a dentist appointment at 4, and he'd be at his mom's office helping her out between the two appointments. So, no trip to Brandon's place... *waa*

Now for what happened today:

While I was driving to the McDonald's, I had to stop by Albertson's to get some gas. I used my customer cards in the gas pump, but I used it wrong because the little screen on the pump said "1 for Debit, 2 for Credit"... Umm no it's not a credit or debit card I put in... So I push the Pay Inside button, selected the grade of gas, swiped the card again, and after maybe a minute of having the damn gas pump beep at me for whatever reason, I was able to pump gas.

The lady on the other side of the pump was there before I was, and she wasn't able to work the gas pump!! She asked me for help, I told her that I'm trying to get my gas pump to work with the customer loyalty card. We talked for a bit (I went over $5 in gas... ended up with $6 in the tank) and she told me that her and her husband had moved over here from Oregon (where you can't pump your own gas) and that this was the first time in 10 years working a gas pump, because for the three weeks that she has been here in Idaho, her husband has filled up the tank and not her.

After leaving Albertson's, I was behind a truck full of dirt... it was kinda windy outside so all of this dust was spewing out of the truck. So I passed it :P

I navigated my way to the McDonald's that all of us had agreed on meeting at... I got there and after maybe 5 minutes of waiting in the van for either Ben or Alex to show up, I went to the pay phone (I had had the cell phone with me, but I don't use it to call people since the number will show up on the bill) and called Alex. I would have called Ben, but he said that would've been a bad idea.

So when I called Alex, I didn't expect him to treat me like a phone solicitor... I didn't get it while we were talking on the phone, but after I hung up I realized that me calling was a cue for him to get his butt down to McDonalds without having to deal with his mom. His mom was home at the time, getting ready for work, so he wasn't able to leave until she left, which was a few minutes after I hung up.

I went inside McDonald's and ordered one of those 59-cent pops that they have on sale... While I was waiting in line I looked over and saw Ben, like 3 people behind me in line. I get my drink and take a seat, I would have been with Ben in line but by the time he got there, there was a fair amount of people in line.

I left real quick to go blow my nose, and when I got to the table Ben was there. We talked for about 5 minutes, then Alex comes in. He said that I embarrased him by me calling, then he said that while he was talking to me, he was trying to get the phone number off of the caller ID, then he said that "most telemarketers don't normally call from PAY PHONES!!"...

We stayed at McDonald's for maybe 15 minutes, then we tried to get Alex's bike into the van, so that we could go down to his house, which is like half a mile from McDonald's. We couldn't get the bike in, so Alex gave us his address and what his house looked like so that Ben and I could get to it, then he rode his bike to his place while Ben and I walked. BUT... Alex didn't know that we were walking. After Ben and I walked a ways (talking the whole time), we deceided to turn around and go back to McDonald's to get Alex's address out of the phone book at the pay phone, then I'd take Ben down to Alex's place in the van. Soon after Ben and I turned around to go back to McDonald's, Alex came riding down the road on his bike, since he was waiting for us and wondering why we weren't at his place. Turns out that Ben and myself were about 8 houses away from Alex's.

So we get to Alex's place, and I follow Ben inside... Right then and there I had a case of deja vu... Yeah, I don't think I've been in the garage of Alex's place before, that seemed kinda familiar, as did Ben... Alex gave us a little tour of his house, which is LARGE compared to mine (and unlike mine, is practically an antique *take that Alex!!*) In one of the rooms was an electric keyboard that was plugged in, Ben stared at it for a few seconds then started playing the theme music to Entertainment Tonight, completed with NBC's little chime.

We then went down to the lower level of the house and talked for a while... Alex and I both showed off some photos that we've take, talked... stuff like that. I've been talking to Ben on AOL since maybe November, and there's times online when he seems shy, and compared to Alex he is. There were times where I could tell that Ben was feeling like odd-man-out (well so did I when I was with Dustin and Denny last month). But all in all both seem like really nice guys.

I really need to trim my goatee... anyway...

A bit before 2 I had to leave, so Ben and I walked down to McDonald's. As I left Alex's house I walked right into a branch on a bush that's in front of the sidewalk *oops*... As Ben and I walked, we kept on talking... We made it to McDonalds where we stopped for a minute and said our goodbyes to each other, then he went across the street and started walking back to his place, and I went to the van that was still parked in the McDonald's parking lot and drove home :P

And on the way home I was behind this semi that had clouds of black exhaust bellowing out of it, and I ran through 4 red lights!! Didn't get caught though *whew*

Dang... long post!! hehe...

Well not a whole lot has happened since I got home...

30 minutes...

Here in about 30 minutes I'm leaving to meet up with Ben and Alex...

Animals in distress...

I stumbled across this page, and the only thing I could think of: what the hell were these people thinking?!?! See for yourself at http://www.ekizochika.com/yukata/index.html... just ignore that popup that might come up, telling you that you need to download the Japanese character set :P

Comments down :(

But YACCS said that they'd be up by morning!! :)

Be on the lookout for falling prices!!

Last night I talked to Ben on AOL for almost an hour... as usual it's really nice talking to him for some reason :)

This morning I had to pick up some perscriptions for my mom. On my way to ShopKo (she gets her medicine from ShopKo, not WalMart like we do for the rest of the medicine) I was behind a Ford Ranger that was driving really slow... On the road leading out of town, you can't pass until you're about a mile outside of town, because the road makes a few twists and turns, then it straightens out and goes over a river and an irrigation canal. After you pass the river, the speed limit goes up to 55... Well this guy was going 23...

I honked the horn really quick, but he kept on going 23 down the road. A bit later I gave a 5-second blast from the horn, which again did NOTHING. There's about a quarter-mile stretch of road where you can pass: between the river and some gravel pits. So I deceided to pass him... I was so mad that I literally floored the gas. He had his window rolled down, so as I passed him, I'm sure that he could hear the ponies coming from a 3.3 litre V6!! I glanced down at the tach and it was at around 5500, and so I almost redlined that thing!!

I talked to Alex for almost two hours today on the phone... if I can convince my mom so that I can go to Boise tomorrow, I may end up meeting Alex (and maybe Ben too... maybe at the same time as well!!)

After my talk with Alex, I went down to Chevron to get a Pepsi refill (44 ounces for 50 cents, beat that!!). As I left, a gust of wind came across and next thing I knew, something hit me on the head. Turns out it was one of those plastic plates that have numbers on them that the gas stations use to put up on the price signs. So it's not every day you get hit by a 5!! Or seeing medium grade gas at 17 cents a gallon either... I took the plate back inside, and I said to one of the cashiers (in a humerous tone), "You might as well put this back up, otherwise people going into town will think that you're selling gas for 17 cents a gallon instead of $1.57" She took the plate and laughed at me :P

Assume = ASS out of (not so much you) ME

Gosh I really jump the gun alot, huh??

I read Amber's comment, and for what its worth... back in March of 2000 I visited some family that I have in Minnesota (spread out amongst Minneapolis, Eagan, Waite Park, Sartell and North Oaks) So for the first night out of the week that we (being my dad, brother, and myself) were there, we stayed at a cabin outside of Bemidji that one of my aunts and her roommates keep. At the time I had a cheap digital camera, I took about 90 or so photos while I was up there. Unfortunatly they were stored on an old hard drive, which a few months afterwards deceided to die on me, so I lost about 750 photos :(

Hah

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For the record: no I did not masturbate today (amazing considering what I put two posts below), 36, navy.

Red x's

I'm tinkering with my template... so there may be a few red x's on the page (or a broken picture if you're like ALEX and using Netscape)

*can't think of a heading...*

Do you know one interesting thing about living with one of the busiest thoroughfares in the county literally on the other side of your property lines is?? You get to see some of thee most unusual stuff on semi trucks... Like today I saw:

ˇ one part of a triple-wide manufactured home (the other two parts were nowhere to be seen...)
ˇ a semi with nearly 15 pad electical transformers strapped onto a flat-bed
ˇ a fire truck and a police cruiser from a nearby city (not from my city, nor from the county)
ˇ a roadkill truck (YUCK!! *gags*)
ˇ the FedEx truck that drives by at around 4 in the afternoon... I can hear it's engine from five houses down
ˇ a handful of farm equipment going 25 at most in a 35 or 45 zone (speed limit depends on which direction they're going)

Okay I'm gonna be really... candid(??)...

Right now I am SOOOOO horny... *feeling odd* I mean, like "I want some sex right now dammit!!" bad. Yeah, SNiP is probably throwing up at the thought of two guys screwing each other, but right now I'm just saying how I'm feeling... Even though part of me is at odds with Brandon right now (not as much as a few weeks ago), out of anyone he's about the only one that I could get sex from if I pathetically begged or something. Knowing him and myself, next time we meet we'll end up doing something.

Ahem... okey enough about that :P

Random comments :)

Well some stranger left me a comment after they stumbled across my blog when I updated it last... Needless to say that's a bit unusual...

This morning I took my brother to work, then I vacuumed out the van since it needed REALLY bad (I vacuumed it when we got back from camping a few weeks ago, didn't do that good of a job at it though). Then I stopped by the credit union and they had came across the two envelopes that I dropped off in their dropbox, so they gave me the dentist bill so that I could go down to hte post office to make sure that it would go out in today's mail.

Gave the dog a much-needed bath, played email tag with Alex... worked on the template a bit... eh, that's about it really...

12 5 39

A few weeks ago I had a few posts about a guy that I've been watching on AOL... I just saw how long he's been onine: 12 days, 5 hours and 39 minutes... C'mon buddy, ya gotta restart your computer sometime...

I think I lost one...

I think that I scared Amber off...

Anywho... here in a few I have to take my brother to work, and he wants me to take him to a car dealership in west Nampa, then to work in east Caldwell... I don't want to drive ALL OVER the friggin valley... So I said that I'd take him to work, and maybe some other time go to the car dealership.

Not again!!

I went to bed at 11 last night after I was done talking to SNiP for quite a while on MSN... I was almost asleep at 12:15 and my brother came in the room, making a ton of noise. At 12:45 I was almost asleep again, then a strom passed over with lightning and really loud thunder. Then it started raining... The rain I can sleep through, the thunder I can't. So at 1:30, after laying in bed for two and a half hours, I finally got to sleep :)

I checked my email this morning and Alex had sent me an email... Turns out that he too knows of someone in the WalMart ad that has the photo of a girl from my school... And this person that he knew was by someone who looked alot like this Brandon guy from Weiser that I have a crush on. And some actions on my part prohibited Alex from meeting a guy up north where he's staying for a few weeks (oops)...

Aside from that... today's going by pretty fast. Thanks to wildfires in Oregon and California, it's a little smokey over here *ick*...

No more blockquotes

Turns out that <blockquote> tags really dont go well with this template... So instead of <blockquote>, they're italisized... and thats from here on out. If you dig through the archives there will still be blockquotes, it's just that there's too many for me to go back and fix each and every one of them.

More tweaks on the way

I'm going to do some more tweaking to the template tonight/tomorrow... So things may look a bit different.

Well today was pretty uneventful...

Oh I did do this really stupid thing this morning... My mom gave me some bills that she wanted me to drop off at the post office, as well as a check the credit union (the credit union has a drop box, so I didn't need a stamp). The check for the credit union and for the dentist were both in small envelope, and the checks for the power bill and cell phone were in larger ones. Now, the credit union and the post office are right next to each other here in town. So I stopped by the credit union and dropped off an envelope in the drop box, then I went to the post office where I realized that one of the envelops didn't have a stamp on it, and that the blue envelope for the dentist was missing... Whoops... So at the post office I borrowed a pen and wrote a note on the credit union's envelope, telling them to send out the blue one out in the mail (which has the address for the dentist). And thats my blonde moment for today :P

My mom did some shopping with her mom and sister in-law, so I stayed home with my sister... Probably was on the internet much longer than I should have been, but eh well...

Email from a friend...

This morning I got an email from Macy (yet another one of my really good friends)... I got it at 11:45 and ever since then I've been calling her house, just to get an answering machine... And I talked to SNiP for a while on MSN, while I was talking to Eric as well...

Blah... I'm bored and tired... and I'm gonna see if I can get ahold of Macy...

Well well well...

I got the new template up (as I mentioned a few times) and aside from me adding in the rest of the content, and fixing some CSS stuff (*fun*), it'll be good to go!!

Amanda was online when I was earlier today, so I started up a instant message session with her. Turns out she's leaving for college next Saturday... Her and I are really good friends, and I really want to meet up with her before we both leave for our own ways. I told her that I wanted to talk to her on the phone, since I wasn't really in the mood for typing a whole lot right then. She said that she would, but as of yet she hasn't called me.

Doing my rounds on the GLBT personals websites, I found yet another person in Spokane. At first I really think that we were at a standstill (or he just wasn't interested in me)... then my mom wanted me off the internet. I got back on a few hours later and he was still on, and he started up an instant message and we talked some more, this time we seemed to get along better.

A comment on the comments...

I got the comment tags back on, but when you click on them, they open up in the same window. For some reason YACCS won't load up in a new window like it used to, so for the time being when you add a comment, the form will be in the same window. When YACCS deceides to open up comments in a popup, I'll switch it back so that it will do so.

New template is up!!

I FINALLY got a new template up!! In a few days I'll have all of the buttons and stuff back on, and the comments too (dont worry, they're not lost)

*yawns*

I got 4 hours of sleep...

Dammit again

Netscape's email went down yet again...

Eh... screw my new template

I found a better one, I just have to put in the source codes for my hit counter and such... Looks like I got my work cut out for me, huh??

Didn't get to see Ben

I hopped online before I left for Boise, and Ben sent me an IM:

(Ben's SN): grrrr my moms all tellin me if i go i have to take my sister cuz she wants to go downtown too and i think my mom thinks somethin's up >:o
Ben: n i dunno what the fuck to do
JunoSurvivor: :-\
Ben: n my mom wants to leave at like noon or so to go swimming at mccall. cuz dad took the day off n everything
JunoSurvivor: oh...
JunoSurvivor: well maybe we can meet up next week
Ben: yeah :-\
Ben: i dunno this seemed like it work...ill probably be feeling better next week to
JunoSurvivor: k

I did make it to where my sister was to ride horses, after driving right by it because I didn't see any of the buildings that my dad mentioned. And the lady who oversees the horses referred to me as being my sister's dad... It's nice to know that a 5-year old can be both a brother and a father, huh??

After the horse ride, I took my sister down to Burger King to get some stuff to eat, then I rode over to where Brandon works, but he must have had the day off (or atleast the late-morning/afternoon). On the way back home my mom called the cell phone... I was driving and I couldn't hear it, but I felt these pin pricks on my thigh, and it was the cell phone vibrating.

I got home and looked through a WalMart ad that was in yesterday's paper... Just flipping through pages and what did I find?? A girl who went to my school was one of the models!! So if you got the same ad as I did, her name in there is Nichole :P

Aside from that... well I haven't done a whole lot...

Trying to make a connection

Quick post... AOL IM keeps telling me I have email in my Netscape account, but I can't get to it... *waa*